Thought I'd make a journal since I haven't made one since January 14th... lol School is going well and I cannot WAIT to get out... More and more these days I find myself becoming really careless about the world and everything in it... I think I'm going into denial >.> Or maybe it's depression? Whenever I'm home I find myself getting angry at my father and my brother, and my mother sometimes but she isn't home [I haven't seen her for over a week... Just saw her yesterday[ so I don't know. I only have one best friend and I feel like I'm bothering her too much, even though I probably am not. I am lost and utterly confused. I don't know what I want anymore, and that's going to be a BIG problem.
Piano used to make me happy. So did drawing. Well now my negative thoughts are coming into my brain and saying that 'I am not good enough playing piano' or 'I suck ass drawing' and that 'BLAHBLAHBLAH is better than me'
I'm too hard on myself, I realize that. I don't know where my optimism and cheerfulness went... come back ;-; Sigh... So many more things are bothering me but I don't want to bombard you guys with it so I'll just shut up.
Onto happier things.
[In my opinion anyway]
I am currently working on a movie that is based on MOTHER 3. =3 The trailer is written and planned out. Now i just have to find people and start filming! It's going to be WAYY more difficult than I'm making it sound like, but I'm up for the challenge. It'll get my mind off of things for a while... SO. The script is coming along well too. I'm playing MOTHER 3 again and writting down some stuff and blah. Unfortunately though, I'm only on Chapter 2 *shot* =O I plan to work on it every free time I got however, and my best friend has already volunteered to edit and give me some ideas. I'm really excited and motivated; I hope it doesn't go away!
I was originally gonna do a movie for Earthbound/MOTHER 2, but I decided not to since there are a buncha already on YouTube. When I'm done with this project, depending on how I'm feeling and the success, I will decide. Finding the right people to act is going to be extremely difficult, as I am really picking with acting abilities and whether people can properly execute them. I will be the director (;D) and MAYBE/POSSIBLY Kumatora, depending if I can find someone. All in all, I hope this will be a fun and successful film, and I might/probably will send it (or give it, if I can go to WA...) to Nintendo along with other things to try to convince them to bring MOTHER 3 to America! *cheers*
BTW- No, this is not going to be a professional film like Titanic or anything. It's meant for YT since I am absolutely BROKE out of my mind, BUT it will HOPEFULLY have professional quality... And it probably will, considering how picky and determined I am with these kinda things Wish me luck!! I'll need it...

P.S.- Anybody know good movie programs besides crappy Windows Movie Maker? I want iMovie and GarageBand but unfortunately I don't own a mac, and I don't think I'll be getting one soon... >.>;; Also, any tips on how to do special effects such as Lightning and Fire [for PSI!] would be extremely helpful, and recommended programs for Windows XP that are just as good as iMovie, etc.
Thank you!<3